Why Blog

I’ve suffered from depression and anxiety since I was a child.  I was bullied in school because of my appearance and the fact that my family practiced a strange religion.  I didn’t realize how much these experiences damaged my mental and emotional well-being until I was in my early 30’s.

I have problems with my moods (they change so quickly) and I don’t understand my own emotions.  This has caused many problems in my relationships with others because I don’t feel like a stable, secure person.  Because I was bullied, I mistrust most people.  It’s hard for me to make and keep friends.  I feel that I spend way too much time alone.

Recently, I’ve experienced some challenges that have made my anxiety even worse.  Earlier this year I was diagnosed with a thyroid problem.  I lost 40lbs and I was hospitalized.  I’m currently unemployed and I’m starting my own business.  Some days I’m really inspired and I work hard at marketing myself to potential clients.  Other days I feel overwhelmed and I can’t even get out of bed.

I decided to start a blog as a way to clear my mind on the days when I struggle with my mental illnesses.  I hope that by writing about my thoughts and feelings, I won’t feel so overwhelmed.