I recently decided to see a therapist because of the issues I have with anxiety and depression. I’m recovering from being a member of a repressive religion that destroyed my self-esteem as well as my social and personal development. I have 5 free EAP sessions that were given to me as part of my severance package when I was laid off. I called the EAP provider and I was given a list of names to choose from. The therapist I chose was a person that had an office close to where I live and flexible hours.
The therapist was nice but I could tell that she was surprised by my appearance. I don’t look like her regular clients. I wasn’t comfortable speaking with her at first. Eventually, I opened up and told her about my mental health problems and my religious background. She gave me a lot of advice that I feel I should apply to my life. One of the most important things she told me was that I should approach people with love and respect. She gave me this advice after I told her about my distrust of others and it’s something that I want to work on. She also acknowledged that the experiences I had from my religious upbringing did have a profound effect on me.
At the end of the session, she gave me a list of cd’s that have subliminal messages. She also invited me to her church. As someone recovering from a damaging, religious upbringing, I found her suggestions to be problematic and not appropriate. The last thing I want is to go to another church or listen to something with hidden messages. I believe that her suggestions came from a caring place but it raised a red flag with me.
I decided not to see her for another session. I’ve been to other therapists and I can’t find one with whom I feel comfortable sharing all of my experiences. I’m beginning to think that perhaps therapy isn’t the right option for me. I’m looking into teaching myself DBT Therapy (I have a DBT workbook) and well as bibliotherapy.